Patient testimonial by Darryn
Good Morning Simon
Hope you are well.
I’m not really good at this but here goes. When making decision to try Iboga as an alternative to normal rehabilitation centre’s or treatments I was totally broken both mentally and physically. I couldn’t find a way out. I tried to be positive in the sense that I’d wake up in the morning positive that I wouldn’t use any more. This feeling would last until maybe lunchtime. From that point I’d start plotting going to score and couldn’t wait for my work day to end. When I’d use in the evening I’d be so disgusted and disappointed in myself. It was a terribly viscious cycle that I though would never end. When I arrived in CT I was happy to have made the decision but not sure if it could work as I’ll tried for so long.
When the treatment began I started taking the capsules i thought this is quite a waste of cash as I didn’t feel anything till that second last one. At the same time I was afraid that there may be some negative side effect and was actually fearing my life. When I took that second last one I started focusing on what I wanted out of the experience. I started focusing on my late wife but each time I tried thinking of her in the hope of seeing her my daughter appeared. That brought a smile to my face. After taking the last one is when the weird visions began. It was quite scary as I saw what I think was evil and suffering. I remember what I think was hell hounds. Frightening creatures though they weren’t after me I was really was afraid of them. Also I remember a set of twins who had some horrible desease. My gran also appeared. She is alive but has also battled addiction most of her life. After I returned to JHB I was really tired but at the same time felt really positive that I had gone for the treatment and as each day passes I’m feeling stronger and that I can start to live finally. I have no regret for the time wasted as I’m looking to the future. Things that bothered me before aren’t phasing me and I haven’t craved at all. It’s an awesome feeling not having those shackles that have tied me down for so long.
Again I want to thank you for all you’ve done. Please thank the nurses aswell.
Regards
Darryn
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